wow.

its been quite the pause since i’ve been on here.
& there have been quite a few changes. hmmmm…where to begin?

Well I’m a sophomore now. Class of 2010!
Heck Yeah.
I turned 16 in September & I got my license the day after.
Driving really is one of the most AH-MAZING feelings in the world.
I love being able to control where I go, when I get there, & who I take w/ me…..
(even though, technically, im not allowed to have friends in my car. )

I also ran cross country this year.
& let me tell you. If you want a challenging sport that sends you over the edge and pushes you to your limits.
Join.
It’s hard. & It’s a lot of work.
But I have alot of fun w/ it & of course my friends, espiecally Ms. Mary Lou! *Love you*

Besides cross country & driving.
I have a boyfriend.
Finally.

His name is Austin.
& he is awesome.
Sweet. Cute. & Caring.
He makes me smile when no one else can.

The only problem with him is the fact that I promised myself I would NEVER fall head over heels for a guy.
And here I am, only 16, and I’m falling hard.
Crap.

 I’m also still on the that life long quest it seems, to discover what I plan to do w/ the rest of my life.
What will I be?
Where will I live?
Where will I go to school?
etc. etc.

i like being able to plan things.
& i hate not knowing what the future holds.
well i guess its more of a love/hate relationship.
its amazing to wait and wonder.
but its awful not knowing.
you know?

i really wish their was a way, someone could just follow you for awhile, look you up and down, and simply say, ‘you should be a (insert career here)’

this would prevent this horrible time spent wasting away on my computer trying to discover what im truly meant to be.
im terrified to pick the wrong thing!!!!
& im hoping someday soon, ill either get a sign or ill just know.
hopefully.

here’s my update.
& i plan to return and give you more soon.

Lots of Love,

~thedreamergirl~

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